MEdia Break

Yes I meant “me” and media. I took a little me time and went to see my parents in Land Between the Lakes. Our daughter was currently there finishing up her senior year, which will be an entire other post. I was able to relax a little and not worry about too much computer time since they have very, extremely very, limited internet capabilities. While I was a little anxious at first being off my normal routine, it was nice not having a computer stuck to me most of the morning. I actually sat back and noticed how everyone else was glued to their phones, lol.

My mornings were drinking coffee and looking out the window to see what critter might be enjoying the morning with me. At first I wanted to watch tv since I had missed the morning news so much (we do not have cable at home, but they have satellite), but towards the middle of my stay I was noticing even turning on the tv was taking away from enjoying the now moment of the morning.

Our daughter was hooked to playstation and meeting friends online (before you call dss she is older and we were monitoring it). Getting her out of the wifi cycle we could see such a difference in her attitude, her grades got better, she had more interaction with us and just more positive attributes. She was even able to come off her depression medicine and made friends that she hung out with.

We all need to stop and unplug for awhile. Technology has taken over on our down time and has made it more of a reboot and update time. Down time means unplug people. If you are having a hard time doing this then go somewhere to where you have no wifi or access to internet and see how much you enjoy it. I am definitely going to watch my time on the devices now that I am back home.

Look at my Stuff

So I have been trying to write for the last week and I just have not found the niche in writing how I have been feeling. I don’t want to go on and on about how I feel so in a short and sweet description, I have been depressed. I have actually been this way for some time and it has taken some time to figure it all out.

I have recently found a correlation between many mental disorders and hoarding. I used to be a hoarder and it took a lot of research and watching the show to realize it. I had the same procrastination as they do on the show and the same emotional reasoning. Oh, I will sell it; oh it meant something to me, I will give it to someone who needs it, and etc. It was actually kind of self-therapy in a way. So fast forward to present day and I have over come a lot. I have actually been able to sell a lot of the items on the Internet.

Poshmark is a great app to sell clothing and accessories as long as they are in style and in great condition. I will begin to go in depth about this more but for now you can see my closet down at the bottom of the page and you can even make some money!!!!   Join me on @poshmarkapp, the #1 app to buy & sell fashion. Sign up with THEPINKCRATE to get $5 off your 1st order. https://bnc.lt/focc/6w3ezI5eCI

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Another site I am using a lot is of course AMAZON. Amazon is great because it has tools and a seller university to help you every step of the way. You can even ship them everything to keep in their warehouse. Let them hoard the items.

So I have been slowly cleaning out the clutter and making some money. I am still spending more then needed time on the couch but I am getting there. I keep telling myself I need to write down a weekly routine and stick to it. At least I do things on my computer while on the couch but as a person who hates technology this is not good. I need to relook at my marketing plan and come up with a more in person approach.

Breaking Bad

No we are not going to be making meth but we will be working on ourselves. I am not a person who is into the resolution kick. No one ever sticks with resolutions and knowing resolution is a decision to do or not do something and results in a pass or fail to many people and when they fail they feel guilt, low self esteem, etc. NOT worth it.

I am going to look more at my bad habits and how I can change them. I think my worst habit is my nutrition. Having gastroparesis I am already limited to what I can eat before I get sick. The best choices are a diet of liquids, crackers, and Gatorade but I refuse to be put on a feeding tube so I make myself eat. It seems like the foods I, and most GP’s (gastropareseis people) are the sugary, processed foods that are easy to get to and satisfy something in our brain more then on our digestive systems. My biggest concern with this is that the foods are so unhealthy and while most of us GP’s are not worried about calories, because most of use need more, I am concerned about the artificial things going into my body, the sugar that is messing up my insulin, nervous system, brain function, etc.

I signed up for the 21 day No sugar challenge, from The Happy Housewife (https://thehappyhousewife.com/real-life/no-sugar-challenge/), so that I could get some ideas and help along the way. Toni, the author, brings up a good point that when changing a habit we need to find a replacement for the bad habit. I quit smoking almost 7 years ago and unfortunately replaced cigarettes with soda. Well soda is going to have to go and now I am stuck with finding a replacement. Toni suggest a few fruits but as a GP fruit is a no-no. I am going to make several small smoothies for throughout the day and as with anything see what happens. I really cannot think of anything else to replace sugar with. Anyone have some good ideas?

I will post the smoothies I make and let you know how it turns out today.

Wish me luck !!!!

 

Happy New Year !!

 

Happy New Year !!!!

Sorry I have been missing in action. Had some time with family and took it 🙂

One thing you will learn about me is I hate technology and will not be on the computer when hubby is home or my kids(though grown) are around.

This year will be fun filled and I am hoping for my blog to grow with followers and help me grow as a person. New habits will be starting, I am hoping to branch out the boutique, and most importantly spread the word of God and spread the knowledge of Gastroparesis and getting it acknowledged as a chronic illness.

From my family to yours we wish you a very prosperous and happy New Year !!!!!

 

I Dont Know

The worst part about having a chronic illness is the not knowing. Not knowing if you will ever work again, not knowing if you will ever feel normal again, not knowing if you will get better or get worse, etc. With Gastroparesis it is even worse then that because even the doctor’s and specialist no nothing about this disease.

I lost a great job because I was always sick and out of the office. I wonder if I should go back to school to even further my education since I have nothing but time right now. But do I spend the thousands of dollars with the thought of maybe never working again? Do I totally rethink my future because I may never be able to have a normal schedule? Matthew 6:34 is a verse I have on my screensaver right now, So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. As humans we think if our future and what might happen. For me my husband will be retiring in 18 months. This will mean a new job for him, if he decides, (he is only 37), moving, and possible being empty nesters. I don’t know that I want to stay at home.

It is such a one-day at a time scenario. You can end up in the ER or the hospital at any moment. It gets very overwhelming. What I have learned to do it make a weekly to do list with my priorities highlighted. I concentrate on those priorities getting done first and then work on the others as I can. I really need to start keeping a food diary to see how I handle each thing. I started one a few months ago but gave up by the second day because it was frustrating. I can not let this break me down.

Flare-up/Feel the Burn

I always like to do my research before posting something just so I know my readers get the right information. For the past few days I have been couch bound due to a flare up and wanted to let you know exactly what that was. I thought it was just a symptom that could happen any time and come on at any moment. Reading information from G-Pact (gastroparesis patient association) it last for days and actually is more about lifestyles. Are there changes in your diet, have you added more stress?

The worst thing about your gut health is that it is associated with soooooooo many other contributing factors. My goal next year to learn more about our digestive systems and the way it controls everything in our bodies and lives. I hope you stick around for all the great information 🙂

For a great read on flare-ups read: via Dealing with a Gastroparesis Flare

 

 

First blog post

I wanted my first entry to blow your socks off. To be Nobel peace prize winning information. I have so many goals for this blog and hope to concur them all. But yesterday I was stopped and humbled by my support group. In just one week we have lost FOUR wonderful people to Gastroparesis. One was a three-year-old little girl. This illness needs more awareness and studies. It is a debilitating, obviously deathly, issue that is not understood. When I was diagnosed I was given the label of having it and told if I need anything else come back. Wow !!!! So today I am going to share a life in the day of someone who suffers from having a paralyzed stomach. My severity is not as bad as a lot of friends that I know but it is a start for sharing.

Depending on how I slept, I wake up at a pretty normal time. Anywhere between 7am and 9am. With it being Sunday I woke up at 9:30 because I did take several medications last night that wipe me out. When waking up I take the six medications I need for other issues, nothing for the gastroparesis because there is really nothing I can take. So far as long as I take all my meds before eating or drinking for the day I am ok. I might soon have to start grinding them up, but for now I can still swallow and hold them down. I only take them with a very small amount of water because there is no way I am holding down a full 8 oz of water.

I then have my morning coffee. I have not let this one routine go. I just cannot yet and I have gone through many brands and strengths before I totally have to give up on my morning joe.

Now this morning was good and I woke up feeling good. About 30 minutes to 45 minutes of being up, BAM, I feel like I need to throw up. I go for the Zofran and hope it works fast. I eat a small pancake because my hubby was so great to make breakfast and then it is couch time for the rest of the day. Church was a televised service because trying to go means hoping nothing comes up, or out from below, or doubled over on pain. I am glad I at least have the option to worship in my house with my family.

I have taken up several crafts I can do while sitting on the couch such as crotchet. It is something to take my mind off what is going on inside my body. I walk around the house some and then for lunch, another small pancakes and ginger ale. My hubby and son have the chili I made them the day before. Got to keep my boys feed J.

Sunday is a pretty laid back day in our house so there is not too much to do besides watch movies and work on my crafts. Even God said it was the day to rest J My son really wanted to play CLUE this weekend but a board game was not in the plan. I hate the times when I just cannot sit at a table and enjoy my family.

So after lunch is more Zofran, Tylenol for headache and now movement has begun in the intestinal track so Bentnyl is taken for the cramps. I do get a big glass of Gatorade in for some fluids. Fast ward to dinner and you guessed it, I had a pancake but this time I did add a little piece of bacon just to get a little protein in and some Sprite. At 6:30 I figure I can go to bed and it be ok. I try to not be in bed during the day just so I feel accomplished, lol. When in bed I lay on my left side because that is where your colon is and it helps things move a little bit so I will take any help I can get. By this time I am in pain and know that it will be a bad night for getting sleep. I take another Bentnyl, walk around some to see if that helps any and it does a little. At 9:30 I let the dog out and sit up some in the recliner. I am trying to hold off on a Phenergan so that I will wake up at a decent time Monday morning. Back to bed at 10pm and then I take a Melatonin and Tylenol and hope for sleep.

This is how it is most days but during the week I do try and get a lot accomplished even if it is just a load or two of laundry. I try my best to keep daily routines and active as much as I can. If I don’t I will slowly sink into a depression and really do not want to do that. I will write one day during the week so you can get an idea of how that goes.

As I said before, my case is not as bad as others. I know what can happen and what this can lead into. I have to watch my nutrition and food intake or I will be put on a feeding tube. I have to watch my fluids and not get too dehydrated or I will have to get daily IV fluids. Everyone one of us suffers differently and in his or her own way. If you want to know more about Gastroparesis I am more then happy to lead you into the right direction and give you great information.

I am going to fight this and I am on a mission to learn how to make myself and others manage, even better cure, this disease!!!!!

The Beginning

We will talk about beginnings a lot in my blog but today lets talk about the beginning of the site itself. This blog has been something I have been called to do for sometime but I have been fighting with God on it for months. I know that if we fight Him too much he will move on to the next person and I did not want to miss this. My arguments with Him were I did not have the time, I was worried about bringing people to the site (for some reason “If you build it, they will come” stuck in my head), and finally I don’t have the money to make it what I really want to. ALL my worries and deflects were resolved and so here I am. This is new to me, this is scary and I know that God is with me as I write and hopefully I can reach out to people and help them as well as entertain and make a few new friends. It is going to be a great ride and I hope you enjoy and contribute. I ask that you have patience as it grows.

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